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Month: January 2018
So I am a male top and a few weeks ago I did my first non-consensual roleplay scene with a female sub. I should note there was pre negotiation in DETAIL about what could be said and done and what couldn’t. Also safewords were obliviously talked about and were set during this scene regardless of the roleplay, after the play and aftercare the woman was happy as can be, smiling, and said she had a great time, I felt the same way until later. (this is part one of the message)
(2 of noncensual roleplay message) So later I felt weird about it. It was hard to describe but I felt bad about it. Now with all these allegations about these celebrities and politicians treating women like shit, it made me feel really bad about even wanting to try it. What should I do?
Anon, it sounds like you’ve got yourself a case of Top Drop!
I’ve talked about sub drop in length before, and Top Drop is sub drop’s opposite number.
It all works like this: when we scene, our brains go into overtime mode in terms of producing neurotransmitters- these would be things like seratonin, epinephrine, adrenaline, norepinephrine, etc. These neurotransmitters are responsible for the rush, the “high” of scening. In particularly intense scenes, so many of these neurotransmitters are produced that your brain can deplete itself of them entirely and lose the capacity to produce more for a time afterward. That time afterward is what we call “Drop” and it can be pretty miserable. Many submissives report feeling intense depression during their Drop times, whereas the most common feeling I see reported from doms is …guilt. Just like the guilt you are feeling now.
It just takes time, anon. Right now the chemicals in your brain are out of their normal balance and so you aren’t feeling right. That’s natural. Just give it time and eventually your brain will fix itself. During this time, you should be doing the best you can to enjoy the things in your life that bring you comfort. If you can reach out to your play partner, do so and make sure that they aren’t also dropping and confirm with them that they enjoyed the scene too. Sometimes that can make a world of difference to hear.
Above all, though, anon, don’t beat yourself up. You acted as a responsible partner before and during the scene. What you’re dealing with right now? We all deal with it. I have, and I can tell you that it does get better.
You’ll be just fine, anon.
-LMS
Dare
Use your voice,
Set your energy free,
Give your body no choice,
Demand more of me,
Rage against my will,
I can take what you have and more,
And do not be afraid of my action,
Retaliation I have in store,
If you do not give it over to me,
I will pull it slowly from you till I hear,
That you have reached your summit,
And see the beauty on the other side so clear,
Swift will be the pain you feel,
Mingled with calm reassurance and care,
This is what I want little one,
This will be your dare.
Poem by me , written for you
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Love me the way I am or leave me alone.
(via deeplifequotes)
You don’t get to hurt me if you don’t also want to cuddle me. You don’t get to call me degrading names if you don’t also want to be sweeter than sweet to me. You don’t get to use my body if you don’t want to look after it, and my mental health and emotions too. It’s really simple.
^Message!
It’s an Aries thing…
You want to be tied down, spread wide to all four bedposts, have your ass whipped and beaten black and blue before getting your tightest hole filled like the ass slut you are?
As long as you make me breakfast afterward 🙂 Just assuming this is the start of the day…
The Darkest One
Come in, come in, come in, come in
From under these darling skies come in
It’s warm and it’s safe here and almost heartening
Off to a time and place now lost on our imagination
Where you don’t complain but you still do
And you don’t explain if you want to explain
What you believe you say without shame, “I just do”
To say what you mean you don’t mean what you say or you do
Where the wild are strong
And the strong are the darkest ones
And you’re the darkest one
Come in, come in, come in, come in
From thin and wicked prairie winds come in
It’s warm and it’s safe here and almost heartening
Here in a time and place not lost on our imagination
Where you don’t explain but you still do
And you can’t complain if you want to complain
Where you’re real instrumental or supple or sexy as hell
Where you say, “I believe” or say without shame, “I can’t tell”
Where the wild are strong
And the strong are the darkest ones
And you’re the darkest one
Oh you’re the darkest one
And if that’s what you want
Oh then you’re the darkest one
Sir's submissive 